Growing up as a child, I always felt different. Not only because of my appearance but there was a part of me that I couldn’t put into words. I felt more, parents and relatives thought I was sensitive to what they thought was no biggie. I just thought I was strange, since kids bullied me because of my looks I just assumed that I was all together strange.
At the age of 5-6 I used to lay awake at night, listening to Beauty and The Beast cassette tapes while trying to fall asleep. At times, I couldn’t fall asleep. Thoughts such “as what is the meaning of life” or “why are we even here” could easy occupy my mind. The sense of “there should be more to life than this” has propelled me to continue seeking. Seeking answers to my questions, seeking answers that even made me feel “weird” for wanting to know more. Let’s just say that I always felt like the strange kid. It was only a few years ago when I stumbled upon the term ‘High Sensory Person’, emedietly, I started googling to learn more.
The words spoke to me and I knew discoveries where to be found.. Although science is slowly but surely catching up with aspects of sixth sensory people and the concepts of HSP. In the mean time I’ve understood that I felt at times more than others. It could be as easy as walking into a store, meeting a stranger and feeling emotions that wasn’t mine. Try to ‘normalize’ that in a 16-year-old hormonal teenager brain, but even though I was open to answers the climate that I was living in condemned these sort of philosophies and belifes.
Thanks to my two years living in Los Angeles, I got to experience a climate where talking about spirituality, empaths or indigo children was normalized. It helped me accept myself more, attracting friends who were just like me assisted me in continuing exploring these traits.
Growing up as a child, I always felt different. Not only because of my looks but there was a part of me that I couldn’t put into words. I just thought I was strange, since kids bullied me because of my looks I just assumed that I was all together strange.
what is HSP?
First of all, this is NOT a disorder. According to researcher Eelaine Aron, 15-20% of the world population has these traits. In fact, biologists have found it in over 100 species (and probably there are many more) from fruit flies, birds, and fish to dogs, cats, horses, and primates. This trait reflects a certain type of survival strategy, being observant before acting. The brains of highly sensitive persons (HSPs) actually work a little differently than others’. To learn more about this, see Research. Here’s a list of some HSP traits:
1 – People point it out. You’ve been told all your life that you are too sensitive, overly emotional, or wear your heart on your sleeve.
2 – You feel other’s feelings. Even before people tell you how you feel, you already know. You can enter a room and have a sense of the general mood in the environment.
3 – Negativity overwhelms you. Where others can tolerate raised voices, conflict, or anger, it sends you over the edge. You almost feel physically sick or in pain as a result of the negative energy around you. You crave peace and calm.
4 – Being in crowded places overwhelms you. You don’t like being in malls, sporting events, airports or other public places with crowds of people. You feel suffocated and overly-excited. You can’t wait to leave.
5 – You avoid negative media images. You find it extremely disturbing to watch or read about tragic news events or see unpleasant images. It bothers you so much, you avoid looking at these images at all costs.
6 – You can easily tell when someone is lying. All you need to do is look at their faces or listen to their tone of voice, and you know instantly whether or not they are telling the truth.
7 – You often show up with the symptoms of those around you. If someone close to you is sick or depressed, you will develop the same ailments.
8 – You frequently have lower back and digestive problems. These are the result of dealing with negative and stressful situations and people. Your feelings show up as these physical symptoms.
9 – You are the dumping ground for the problems of others. People around you seem to gravitate toward you and unload all of their pain and problems on you. Because you are an empath, you feel compelled to help, even to your own detriment.
10 – You often feel fatigued. Because others take so much from you, you often feel drained of energy and extremely tired. You might even have chronic fatigue syndrome.